What does writing out of darkness mean to you?
What could’ve happened to me, what I could’ve became, I think, as an artist, what my story could’ve been, how I let pressure get to me and really defeat me, had I become like… had I just said: “Fuck it, I’ma just be this type of artist” or had I just took a different path. I think the only reason that didn’t happen was because I was able to get that shit out of me by writing, you know what I mean? A song like Let Nas Down is like weow, it’s like weight off your chest.
That’s what Born Sinner felt like for me. It felt like that. The last day, I listened to the album literally… I finished the album, I listened to it straight through, was just about to go and master it, I’m literally sitting in the studio, by myself. I had been in the studio seven straight days, no shower, no bullshit, literally straight. I ain’t even see the outside til I was done with the album.
It’s like six, seven, maybe even eight am, I’m in the studio listening to the album and I could not believe like… it’s almost like I’m hearing it like a fan for the first time, almost surreal. Born Sinner came on, the last song, started crying… greatful tears and also unbelieveable tears like I really did it like I beat the shit like I beat y’all n-ggas, you know what I mean? I could’ve been crushed, I could’ve been broken, I could’ve lost.